Carrie Fab

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 06:12:13 GMT

when i was walking home with jess i looked up at the sky and had the weird feeling that i'd look back on this moment and yearn for it.

Day 3 4 and 5

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 03:58:32 GMT

Day 3

Dr. Palmer bowed for me.

!!!!!!

Day 4

Alex: "You're too pretty to have a life in shambles."

Alex: "Art is the point of life."
me: "Oh man."
me: "Without that I'm nothing."
Alex: "That's why I like you."

Day 5

I didn't sleep until 10:30 in the morning.

Liz Wiley was genuinely impressed tonight after the show.

I finally feel happy again.

why do i ask so many questions?

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 05:48:03 GMT

why do we want men to jump through hoops for us? why do they have to pass ridiculous tests we intentionally put out for them? to see if they're *really* worth our approval? then why do we feel impelled to throw even more tests out there if they pass the first ones?

for that matter, why do some people try to manipulate how someone feels about them by making them feel guilty, when they were sort of the ones at fault in the first place?

okay i'm getting off my soapbox. i just want to be able to enjoy my life without worrying if my relationships are how they're supposed to be. no people are exactly like each other, so let's stop expecting them to be.

i'm done now. i promise!

Wed, 19 Dec 2007 04:46:52 GMT

very good things:
FINALLY being done with that stupid paper
so close to break i can taste it
wonderful family and friends :)
mom's cookies
free coffee
bff living in my dorm next semester!!!!

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 20:36:47 GMT

well scratch writing off the list because apparently i can't do that either

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 19:08:03 GMT

" I restore myself when I'm alone. A career is born in public - talent in privacy." -Marilyn Monroe

Sat, 08 Dec 2007 06:10:35 GMT

it was a lovely party and my room was a great place to have it and everyone had a great time and during and afterwards and presently i was and am invisible.

Thu, 29 Nov 2007 05:06:40 GMT

sometimes i feel so trapped/anxious/repressed that i want to explode.

Loudly. Violently. Beautifully.

Sat, 17 Nov 2007 16:29:22 GMT

Lets101 - Free Online Dating

note to self

Fri, 12 Oct 2007 04:54:21 GMT

you are looking at their surface. the inside is probably totally different. and more like your own.

Thu, 11 Oct 2007 04:59:34 GMT

it's a bird it's a plane it's a!

this has been one of the most fun experiences of my life and i love you all and OH MY GOD WE OPEN TOMORROW!

Mon, 17 Sep 2007 15:19:16 GMT

Kiss the boys as they walk by, call me their baby.
But little do they know, I'm just a maybe.

Fri, 24 Aug 2007 02:08:30 GMT

i always try too hard to cling.

and it never works.

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 03:27:55 GMT

i never knew i'd be so thankful that a cute boy didn't pick up the phone.

and i have no idea why.

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 03:30:57 GMT

today has been an off day and i really have no idea why. i woke up happy. like, really genuinely perfectly happy. and nothing happened to change that, but my mood just kind of fell into neutral on its own. this weekend was so fantastic, but it made me want to live in a city, but if i go to one i'll probably get really freaked out.

hung out with sarah and ned and played scrabble. came up with the longest words on the board and LOST. i defect against the board game gods.

everybody's got boy drama but me. i'm boring. i get so mad at people who freak out thinking having a guy is the epitome of a fulfilled existence, and yet i get lonely. this is a really crappy conundrum. do i get points for alliteration?

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 20:36:46 GMT

this is also the best thing ever.

THE ASK E. JEAN ELEVEN-DAY MAN CURE

Semi-warning: Records reveal that Psychic Orgasm
was attained by 187 women on or before day nine
of The Cure (four of them went on to win a Nobel
Prize). What The Cure does: Brings balance,
action, and wisdom to your life and turns an
"incredibly stupid story" into an unbelievably
brilliant biography.

DAY ONE: Stay in bed and recover from the
daiquiri binge.

DAY TWO: Buy a little notebook and divide it into
sections entitled adventure, art, nature, music,
literature, discipline, beauty, God, and heroism.
Every night when you climb into bed, record how
you enriched your life that day in each
category---ideas you had, intelligent discourse
you engaged in, plays you saw...

DAY THREE: Stop into a secondhand bookshop and
pick up the following (you must go to the
classics to understand the human heart in
conflict with itself): Pride and Prejudice, by
Jane Austen, The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn,
by Mark Twain, Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy, A
Moveable Feast, by Ernest Hemingway, Walden, by
Henry David Thoreau, A History of Western
Philosophy, by Bertrand Russell, and Bad As I
Wanna Be, by Dennis Roldman (it's a worm's eye
view of the male species and one of the great
masterpieces of the twentieth century). Set aside
an hour a day for reading.

DAY FOUR: Write a poem.

DAY FIVE: Listen to Bizet's Carmen, Vivaldi's The
Four Seasons, and Beethoven's Fifth cranked so
loud your neighbors call the cops.

DAY SIX: Take in an exhibition of sculpture,
potteryu, photography, tapestry or paintings.

DAY SEVEN: Volunteer at the ASPCA or Friends of
Animals (a dog will love you more than you love
yourself).

DAY EIGHT: Go to a good film. Argue about it
afterward with a smart friend.

DAY NINE: Test-drive a Corvette.

DAY TEN: Sit in the front row at a lecture on
astronomy, archeology, religion, or physics at a
nearby university.

DAY ELEVEN: Hike through a quiet wood.

By the twelfth day, you will have rid yourself of
that awful "crazed" sensation, your notebook will
give you confidence. your life will start to
swing into balance, and your brain will feel
brand-new. And you're not giving up men entirely.
In between Corvette driving, daiguiri drinking,
dog petting, moviegoing, art viewing, poem
writing, and Thoreau reading, The Cure allows you
to chase all the silly fellows you want. Good
luck!

quotes and happy things

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 20:26:04 GMT

really good things:
-friends turning 21 at the same time
-huge parties for said friends
-gorgeous apartments with gorgeous views of the city
-shopping!!!!
-having enough food to feed a family for a year
-tequila sunrise
-forever 21
-iced coffee
-summer!

tender is the night quotes:
"I am slowly coming back to life."

"He used to think that he wanted to be good, he wanted to be kind, he wanted to be brave and wise, but it was all pretty difficult. He wanted to be loved, too, if he could fit it in."

"Nicole's world had fallen to pieces, but it was only a flimsy and scarcely created world; beneath it her emotions and instincts fought on."

eat pray love quotes:
"If I am to truly become an autonomous woman, then I must take over that role of being my own guardian."

"It's easy enough to pray when you're in distress but continuing to pray even when your crisis has passed is like a sealing process, helping your soul hold tight to its good attainments."

"Please help me memorize this contentment and help me always support it."

why my job rocks

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 21:22:22 GMT

i called bruce hornsby's mom last night. and sam sadler, only he didn't pick up.

i also saw ratatouille, and it was adorable, if slightly too long.

swing dance tonight! hurray!

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 03:21:11 GMT

if i can ever write anything that is a fraction as beautiful as Lolita, i may finally achieve that ever-elusive state of novelist nirvana.

Tue, 03 Jul 2007 03:17:57 GMT

i was looking at this new site for American Apparel, and they actually have on sale a pair of gold lame shorts. i really thought when i clicked on them a big sign was going to come up saying "JUST KIDDING!" but no. they're real. and terrifying.

this is my deep insight for tonight.

things i did today

Sat, 30 Jun 2007 20:10:06 GMT

ate an entire bag of skittles.

i am a champion.

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 21:44:42 GMT

ahhh bicyclists everywherrrrrre!

today i talked to two sweet little ladies from Pennsylvania who were doing this "Bike Across Virginia" thing. they were really cute and just wanted to know where the UC was, and we talked for like ten minutes. yay random friendly encounters.

speaking of random, i'm completely in love with this UK top 40 radio station i found on iTunes. if only american radio could realize how freaking awesome bands like the Gossip and the Feeling are. weee!

so broke and apparently starving to death according to this food diary i fell upon earlier. but so happy anyway! haha i need to go win the lottery or something.

spontaneous end of post!

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 17:25:24 GMT

a cardinal hopped up onto my table at the grind today and stared me down for five minutes until i gave him a piece of my muffin.

"that was REALLY cool." said the random guy next to me.

i love life.

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 20:57:58 GMT

some quotes that i've meant to put up for a while and keep forgetting.

"Just for a few months of one's life, is it so awful to travel through time with no greater ambition than to find the next lovely meal? Or to learn how to speak a language (only) because it pleases your ear to hear it? Or to nap in a garden, in a patch of sunlight, in the middle of the day, right next to your favorite fountain? And then to do it again the next day?" -Elizabeth Gilbert, eat pray love

"You bear God within you, poor wretch, and know it not." -Epictetus

"That's what they mean by the love that passeth all understanding: that pride, that furious desire to hide that abject nakedness which we bring here with us, carry with us into operating rooms, carry stubbornly and furiously with us into the earth again." -Peabody, As I Lay Dying

last night was lovely. went for a night swim with heather and her friend ethan. now tonight after work i'm hopefully going swing dancing again with amy! work is getting really funny. everyone just seems really apathetic. i guess it's summer doldrums or something. it's usually fairly enjoyable though, so i don't mind. even when it's rainy outside.

and on a related note, green tea is the best thing ever.

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 02:57:52 GMT

hanging out with your newly married cousin is a really fantastically fun thing. seeing her apartment and having her live in the same town as you is a wonderful thing.

and then to top it off she's applied to be my boss.

so many surreal-but-amazing things!