Seth and I went for a soak in the hot tub this morning. It was invigorating! The temperature was about -5 outside, but we were able to get out of the wind. The warm water felt great and when we got out I felt so refreshed. Sure, the walk to the tub before and back to the house after were both quite a shock, but it still felt great!

What makes me smile is seeing the kid who sits across from me in Pre-AP Calc laugh.

Everyone else in that class is really close, either as friends or because we grew up together, but nobody knew him at the beginning of the year and he's pretty quiet so he just kind of got ignored. But now we talk a lot and today he read my notebooks of quotes and drawings and tomorrow I get to read his notebook of poetry!


Also, if you guys remember my soul mate from a couple of other posts – whose girlfriend called me to get his home phone number and all of that? Well... we're dating now. (:

today was full of a lot of positive things. i find that when i'm home there are more positive things that happen today.

-i had my first and only final today and i think i did pretty good.
-i hit some traffic on my way home but i made it
-i went to the library with my mom and brother and i got the first two vampire diary books to read. i'm really excited to see if they are like the show or not.
-now my dad is making homemade pizza for dinner!

I had my niece and nephew out this morning for an hour and a half. I took them around on the sled and then dug snow paths all over the yard for them so it'll be easier walking in all that white stuff :o) My niece found the soccer ball and started kicking it along what I dug out. They're such great kids.

I used the tread mill while they were napping; a good work out day for me!

My new tattoo is healing wonderfully.

I finished a Charles De Lint book and have six more of his novels to devour.

I stumbled upon another Latin word to get tattooed. I have one on each hand and I think I'll put this next one on my right foot. The left foot is reserved space :o)

Christmas cards and packages came in the mail today!!

Two more kid duty days left after today before I head home!

It snowed today! I took Abby for a walk in the snow and she loved it! She was leaping and jumping in it and her tail was wagging like crazy. It was incredibly fun. Maybe this means a white Christmas?

my todo list didn't get done today, but I really don't care lol. I did, however, score 6 shirts/sweaters at Old Navy for my kids for Xmas and EVERYTHING was on sale

I was able to get my therapist's gift fixed today. And I ate a pretzel from Auntie Anne's ^^

today isn't over yet, but i figured i would post anyway.

-the party i went to last night turned out to be a lot better than expected. i saw and old friend and didn't feel awkward like i thought i would.
-today i am really really tired and i am struggling to finish my history exam but i am not panicking it. [i think its because i just don't care anymore]
-im going to dinner with my roommate at the boy's house, which is always interesting.
- i go home TOMORROW!!!

I have goals to work toward.

I woke up this morning and didn't feel at all anxious about the food I ate at the Christmas party last night. I took a wonderfully long walk today in the snow for leisure and not to appease the eating disorder monsters.

I put new songs in my mp3 player

I have three days left of kid duties before heading home for two weeks. Yay!!!!

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Today was a lot better than yesterday. (But not as great as tomorrow! Heehee. This is me being optimistic.)

I had to drive three times around the supermarket before I could find parking, and was about to give up on the first try, but poor kitty is almost out of food, so I tried harder, until the cool guard took pity at all of us and let us park on the sidewalk. Free! :)

I went to a christmas party tonight. My friend who volunteers at the library on weekends asked me to go with him. We met because of my library visits and even though he's about 20 or so years older than me I still had a lot of fun! I didn't feel anxious about the food I ate, drank enough to feel good but not stupid. We danced a bit and I was able to be honest about wanting to leave early when my sister would come and get me instead of staying later because I'd feel I would have had to just because he probably would have wanted to. Had my first tequila shot too and it was tasty! i'm usually a vodka or jager person; but I could get used to tequila now :o) I didn't feel like a huge dork being there.

had a way funner time at the party today than I thought I would. I'm not a super outgoing person - and yippee - got more Christmas shopping done. The wrapping starts TOMORROW

at least i think i'm on day 5. all the days seem so long now that the last time i posted seems like forever ago.
today was pretty terrible. the depression is getting the best of me and i don't have the energy to pretend like everything is okay anymore.
there is a party tonight and im suppose to be all excited for it, but i'm not. i don't even really want to go.

the only good thing about today was that i got to talk to one of my good friends Kevin, whom i hadn't talked to in while. We had a great conversation. we planned a trip to the city for when i come home for break. he is really one of the only people that understands me and where i'm coming from and all thats going on in my messed up head. so it was nice to hear from him and talk some things through.

I usually cry and sob like a baby when I don't get to do something that I really want to do, especially if it's something I've been waiting months for. Due to fail on my part, I was not able to test for my learner's permit. I teared up a little bit and started to think badly of myself, but it didn't last long. I put the thoughts away and told myself that I could try again :)

It's my first day of holidays and so far it's been great. This morning I got to sleep in... till 11! I haven't been able to sleep in that long in years. It felt so good. At 7 a.m. Seth took Abby for her walk so I could stay in bed and sleep. It felt so good!

I'd been having a terrible time of late (all year, really), and this has been a particularly crappy day for me. Oops, there goes my intro.

And I ended up here. Change is coming, I can feel it. I believe it. And even when circumstances tend to point otherwise, I've made a decision to keep believing it.

Thank you for this community!

I'm over half-way through Percy Jackson & The Olympians: The Lightning Thief. It's not the best book in the world, but it's a pretty fun read. :D

its freezing cold outside. there is snow on the ground that keeps turning into ice. going outside is unbearable.


i go home in three days!
i had no classes today so i went to the mall with some people and ate a really delicious bagel.